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12 March 2014 @ 02:46 pm
Those Trainee Days: Prologue [0/3].  
Title: Those Trainee Days
Pairings: Setao, Kaisoo, Baekyeol
Main Characters: Sehun, Zitao, Jongin, Kyungsoo, Baekhyun, Chanyeol
Side Characters: Yifan, Luhan, Joonmyun, Jongdae, Minseok, Yixing
Rating: NC-13
Genre: Drama, Romance
Chapters: 0/3
Word Count: 1,339
Summary: Oh Sehun explains to the interviewer as to why he hated his time as a trainee. He never liked those trainee days. He never liked those idol days. And he most certainly doesn't like the life he is living now.


Those Trainee Days: Prologue [0/3]

It was impossible for Oh Sehun to keep still during this interview. He couldn't stop moving around in his chair or fidgeting with his fingers. He forgot to take his pills this morning, the pills he couldn't leave his house without. There were the pills that kept him sane, kept him breathing, kept him living, and kept him still. How could he have forgotten them? It was because he could care less about his life. He didn't care if he died today, tomorrow, or right about now. He didn't want to be here. He didn't want to sit still in a chair while some stranger threw questions at him. He didn't want to answer any questions, and he didn't want to be filmed.

"What do you like to do on your free time?" The interviewer asked, smiling warmly at Sehun. Her eyes kept going from Sehun to the script in her hands, reminding him to say his lines. All of this was going live. Anything that was being said was already scripted. If Sehun didn't go by the script then there would be no way to edit things out.

"Sleep." He simply said.

"How often do you sleep?"

"Everyday." He glanced at the camera man and groaned. "Actually, I would be sleeping right about now if I hadn't been called down here to be interviewed by you good for nothing, pathe--"

The interviewer cut the upset and impatient man off with her throat. "That's great!" She said. Sehun could hear the nervousness in her voice. "D-Do you still like to dance? I remember when you and Jongin were the best dancers in EXO-K..."

"No."

"Oh. What a bummer." She licked her thumb and flipped to the next page. "Are you married, Oh Sehun?"

"No." Sehun looked down at his hands, and noticed that they were shaking. His palms were also red, yet he couldn't do anything about it. He was really starting to get impatient. He could see his prescription pills sitting on his kitchen counter, waiting to be opened. He was so desperate and tempted to ditch the interview and run back home to grab them. He thought pills would calm him down. He wanted to believe that he needed them but deep down, those pills were killing him.

"How old are you now?"

"31." He grunted under his breath. This lady was asking the most obvious questions out there. If she really wanted to know how old he was, she could just easily Wikipedia it.

"If you could marry any girl in the music industry now, who would it be?"

That was it. Sehun couldn't take any more of this.

"My pills. My pills..." He kept on mumbling. "I need to take my pills."

"E-Excuse me?" The interviewer stuttered. "I'm sorry, but that has nothing to do with what I just asked you."

"What is this? I thought you guys called me here to ask about EXO, not about me!" Sehun snapped. He got out from his chair. "Why would you ask questions about me? Why would anyone want to ask questions about me? Why would they care if I was married or not? Why would they want to know how old I am or what I like to do in my free time? I highly doubt your viewers or fans or whatever the hell you want to call them care about me or EXO. The group has been disbanded for six years! Why am I here? Why did you invite me here!?"

The interviewer wide eye'd the camera man. Her gut was telling her that interviewing Oh Sehun and making it live was a terrible mistake, yet she continued on. There was nothing to do. The camera was already rolling. She was really hoping he would cooperate with her.

"I'm sorry. You are correct." She spoke in a soft voice, hoping that would calm Sehun down alittle bit. "I will ask more questions relating to EXO."

"Or don't ask me questions at all..." Sehun said to himself, annoyed. He sat himself back down in his chair and sighed. The clock was ticking and time was being wasted. He was losing track of time, along with his patience. The two had only been in this small cubical for thirty minutes. There was about twenty-five minutes left till all of this was over. Sehun knew he wasn't even going to make it through five more.

"What do you miss more; your life as a trainee or your life as an idol?" The interviewer asked. Sehun didn't have to think about this one. He wasn't going to lie about it either.

"To be honest with you, I don't miss either of them." He slowly leaned back in his chair. "The only thing I miss is my relationship with Huang Zitao. Besides that, I wish I never signed that contract with the company. Do you want to know why?"

The interviewer stared down at her stack of stapled papers. None of that was in Sehun’s script.

"What do you think?" He went on. He didn't care if this was live. He didn't care if he wasn't going by what his script said. He wanted to get all of what he had been holding inside out. "How does my face look? I look disgusting, right?"

The lady opened her mouth to answer but didn't get the chance to. That was a rhetorical question.

"You see that my face is pale and my eyes are bloodshot red. I haven't been able to sleep at all. I couldn't even sleep when I was a trainee." Sehun picked at his sweater. "Do you see my clothes? Can you smell me? I smell awful, right? I haven't taken a shower in weeks."

The lady looked at him in disgust, but that didn't bother Sehun. He was used to getting those type of looks from people. When he walked through the streets of Seoul, people would look at him in disgust or hatred all the time.They treated him with zero respect.

"I'm fucking miserable." He said. "I'm pathetic. I'm a 31 year old man that can't even take care of himself. I'm completely broke and just lonely. I have no one to go to. Everyone has left me. The ones that I cared about the most are all gone. The one that I loved dearly and cherished with all my life has fucking left me! I can't sleep. I can't eat. I can't think clearly. I can't even take a shower."

The interviewer now looked at him in a different way. She didn't look at him with disgust. She looked at him with narrowed eyebrows and saddened eyes. Sehun didn't want her pity.

"I'm so sorry." She said, shoving the script underneath her left thigh.

He wasn't going to accept her apology, either.

"My body is unhealthy. I look unhealthy. I am unhealthy." He admitted, forcing himself to cough. He could feel something painful in his throat. It felt like needles pinching through his air pipe, giving him a hard time to breathe. "One of the reasons why I'm this way is because of that contract. It's because I signed it without having second thoughts."

"B-But why?" She asked. "What exactly happened?"

It took a while for Sehun to respond. He wasn't sure if giving out certain information in front of national television would be safe. He thought about it for a second and realized that it didn't matter. Like he said before, the viewers didn't care about him. They didn't care about EXO either.

Sehun felt something wet on his face, but tried to ignore it. He stared down at his hands and noticed that they weren't shaking. He noticed that the palms of his hands were no longer a faded red. He noticed that he wasn't fidgeting with his fingers. But the most important part was that he was keeping still.

For the first time in a long time, his body was still. And because of that, he began to cry.

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Part 1
Part 2 (Coming Soon)
Part 3 (Coming Soon)

 
 
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tingcantotaku on February 13th, 2014 02:26 am (UTC)
omg, this. THIS.
SEHUN. WHYYYY IS HE ADDICTED TO PILLS AND SMELLY
NOOOO
WHATS GONNA HAPPEN
CHAPTER TWO GURL
OMF
HES CRYING
UPDATE
I LOVE YOUR WRITING SO MUCH OMF
Sara: pic#122754573ohoratsoo on February 13th, 2014 02:38 am (UTC)
Hahahaha! Yeah. He's addicted to pills but he's in denial about it that's why he's like ''I need them'' but really he doesn't. He wants them.
THIS IS A PROLOGUE. YOU MEAN CHAPTER ONE GULL!
MY WRITING SUCKS
WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT


Edited at 2014-02-13 02:39 am (UTC)
tingcantotaku on February 13th, 2014 02:55 am (UTC)
OH WAIT
CHAPTER ONE COMEEEEE
YOUR WRITING IS GREAT SHUSH YOUR FACE
I LIKE IT
YOUR GRAMMAR ROCKS
AND WAHHH THE PLOT SOUNDS REALLY GOOD SO FAR
WILL THIS CAUSE ME MANY FEELS IN LATER CHAPTERS
Sara: pic#122754573ohoratsoo on February 13th, 2014 03:00 am (UTC)
Re: OH WAIT
Yes. This will cause you many feels later so I advice you to keep a tissue box next to you, an oxygen tank, and a phone next to you just in case you need to call 911. Because..."I HAVE FALLEN AND I CAN'T GET UP!"

I'm not really experienced with how to use those certain words and how to make my writing sad to make people cry. I will try. I don't know. I can totally do sad fics. It's just that if I write them, some people might not get that ''sad feeling that i want to die'' like they did with Anterograde and...Countdown (OMG I WANNA DIE JUST BY THINKING ABOUT IT AND SET ME FREE BY TAEYEON SM THE BALLAD IS PLAYING RIGHT NOW AND I WANNA CRY MY EYES OUT OK). Maybe I can make readers sad but not sad to the point they want to cry, you know what I mean?
tingcantotaku on February 13th, 2014 04:20 pm (UTC)
WAOH
I WILL HAVE A OXYGEN TANK DONT WORRY
COUNTDOWN OMF LETS NOT DISCUSS THAT ;_____:
MY FEELS
yah i know what you mean ahaha
i wanna learn how to write fics
heehee i've only written one and it was in 7th grade when i wanted to ship naruhina but only because sakura was being a little bitch but then i got over that phase pshh
Sara: pic#122754573ohoratsoo on February 13th, 2014 04:29 pm (UTC)
Re: WAOH
Discuss Countdown and I will be depressed. LOL. Thank goodness sad angsty kaisoo fics aren't real life. Do you know how many times the two would die EVERY FREAKING TIME? ugggh! Too much to handle~~
You should write a draft of a fic and then send to me so I can read. And then I'll tell you that its DA BEST WRITING EVER! I really want to read a fic of yours 'cause that would be fantastic baby~
I've been writing since the 4th grade. But they weren't fanfics. They were just short stories with made up characters of my imagination.

My first fanfic i read was Digimon fanfic when I was...maybe in Elementary school, i think? Yeah. XD It was hetero, though.
tingcantotaku on February 13th, 2014 04:34 pm (UTC)
Re: WAOH
omg if they made kaisoo moviesssss ;____:
i might write some fic later today hehehe
i've been reading fanfiction since 5th grade
i found some katniss x gale (hg) fanfiction and then i started anime in sixth grade
AND THEN MY LIFE STARTED WITH ANIME FF
the sad life of a fujoshi<3333
then it got even better when you got me into exo BECAUSE ALL THE EXO FF AUTHORS ARE SO GOOD
LIKE ANTEROGRADE TOMORROW IS A WORK OF ARTTTTT
Sara: pic#122754573ohoratsoo on February 13th, 2014 04:42 pm (UTC)
Re: WAOH
I would like kaisoo movies, though. Yes!
OMG! Please write fanfic and post to journal today! I wanna reaaad. What pairing are you thinking about doing?
Ha! Hunger Games fic XD
DO YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE IS A PIECE OF ART? You~ hehehe Cheesy lines are cheesy. Oh, EXO is also a piece of art, too.
tingcantotaku on February 13th, 2014 04:44 pm (UTC)
Re: WAOH
wahhhhh i have no idea
maybe sekai or kaisoo or hunhan? or taoris? I HAVE NO IDEA
AHAHAH YOURE PERFECT
EXO is art
their bodies are art
<333333
Sara: pic#122754573ohoratsoo on February 13th, 2014 04:53 pm (UTC)
Re: WAOH
Taoris! Hunhan! I think we need more hunhan. Theres not enough of them anymore. It's always xiuhan everywheeere. ugh.
AWW! STAHP IT! YOU'RE PERFECT. SHUDDDUPP.
dalkomhdalkomh on February 13th, 2014 03:46 am (UTC)
WOWOWOW
Totally caught my attention within the first paragraph!!! You're writing got so much better recently, that grammar is perfect! I think you're really getting into the flow of narrative writing. I like this style much more than the scenario style of writing. Good job!!! A+++

Can't wait for the next chapter! Omgg my baby, Sehun <333
I loved the ending. He started crying cause he was finally stayed still right?!?!! RIGHT?!?!! OMGGGGG T__T
Sara: pic#122754573ohoratsoo on February 13th, 2014 04:16 am (UTC)
Re: WOWOWOW
Oh my gosh, really? adjsaldja! Wow thanks! What's the scenario style writing? What is that? lol

Yes. He started crying because he was finally able to stay still. That and something else but you wont find out till later. You wont be able to find out until you know what happened to Sehun as a trainee and as an idol. Sehun tells his story to the interviewer and the next chapters are going to be what Sehun experienced and stuff while being a trainee and other otps will be introduced then. There will be parts where the narrative is on a certain otp but the main otp is Setao.